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The sea called her as he was
dreaming. From that day, she loved his breaths...
His waves as they break and get lost upon the dewy
rocks to scatter bits of
crystal and revive the atmosphere, or to reach
continuously and kiss the doorstep of the blown
sand.
She walked barefoot by the extent
between the land and water where the sea starts or
ends its long journey. The sun emits proudly every
forenoon, as usual, on the tourist groups that hide
in that small, pretty city, from the chocking, noisy
buildings.
From a distance she saw him
meditating the sea, as usual, and his sight staring
at the never-ending horizon, where the blue meets
the sky in a never-ending hug. She approached. The
salty, humid air dallied her hair on her cheeks and
friendly moved the edges of her white dress. His sad
face looked at her even with the smile that wet his
lips. Every time he saw her he said:
- Don't you ever get board of walking
alone?
She answered with a sigh:
- Perhaps it’s a way to escape.
- Escaping doesn't solve a problem.
She stared far at the sea and said:
- One day I'll change my fate, and
travel far away on one of those far ships.
He said smiling:
- We escape from our fates to our
fates.
She questioned:
- Don’t humans build their own fate?
- Not exactly, or we would have been
done with tortures like sadness and failures of
hope.
- As if you are speaking of prison.
- A prison we can't escape from,
that lives inside us. It stays the largest prison in
the presences because it is without bars. But you
have a choice.
- I don't own the courage, and you
know why.
- From my experience, I tell you
honestly that fear has a slow death. And a human has
only one life.
He continued:
- Make your choice. You either leave
him or live a normal life with him.
She whispered as if to herself:
- Nothing with him is normal.
- Anything is better then staying …
She cut him saying:
- I'm stuck in between the sky and
the ground… Say it.
He said as if apologizing:
- Young like you, he's an oppressive.
Then as if he remembered something,
he said correcting himself:
- But, better to be wronged than to
be an oppressive.
She looked at him with sympathy and
said:
- When will you stop torturing
yourself?
He said in a shining sadness accent:
- It's my fault the most expensive
creature in my life got lost.
- It was judicature and fate.
- She pleased me to slow down but I
was enraptured by the drunk of happiness. I never
felt anything till I suddenly woke up on the
nightmare of her death and her small body trembling
on my arms filled with blood.
As she looked in his eyes, she said:
- Tell me. Did you want to cause the
accident? Did you want to intend her death? Answer
me.
He stayed silent head down. She
looked at him, at his skinny fingers, like an
artist's fingers. She meditated his bonny body, his
deep, black eyes like the eyes of an affectionate
wolf. The scares on his cheeks added manly
characteristics on his face. They had a moment of
silent sadness. It was interrupted by the noise of
teenagers in beach clothes running after a colored
ball. He had his head down when he asked her in his
calm voice:
- Why did you marry him?
- They choose him for me.
- Why didn't you reject?
- I did, but no one listened.
- Then leave him.
- And my daughter? He'll take her
from me. You can't imagine how mach I'm attached to
her. She is the lung I breathe with. She is the
string that connects me to this world and without
her…
He interrupted:
- Never think like that.
She was breathing hard from the anger
as she looked toward the sea that was filled with
secrets, heaved with worries, and going on forever,
covered with foam.
White sea gulls flew in the extent
with freedom resting for today and tomorrow to break
the wide silence with their echoes of the sharp
calls from time to time.
She grabbed a pile of shining, warm
sand with her hand and let it fall in-between her
fingers like a sand watch fling in the breeze. Many
colorful sand atoms and small snail peals that were
one day part of this explosive alive world. She
meditated them as they fell and gave up life.
She walked toward the sea, her
footsteps called her as soon as they got erased with
every coming wave. She stepped in the turbid waters,
where the long rainbow-colored mosses easily rocked
along with the water. The sea called her to step in
closer. She rowed with her weak arms in the azure
waters, till she reached the depths of the turquoise
lakes, and there the full overwhelm obtained her, in
silence pumping with life. She listened to the voice
of the sea as it revealed its secrets. She was not
fearful. Then she raised her head to take a deep
breath. The sun was sending its last silver shine,
sparkling on the dancing surfaces.
His voice reached her filled with
fear:
- Return, you are now too far!
With tired steps, she approached the
sand. He looked at her and his face's convulsions
reveled his suffering. He said admonishing:
- I worried about you.
She replied with an exhausted voice
as she caught her breath:
- We are late. Let us return.
The sound of the tourists moved away
gradually to shadowy echoes as she shivered with
goosebumps. She gave them her back and slowly pushed
the wheelchair.
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Translated by: Said
Alwaely
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